January

When I was a little girl I had a picture book.

Bows and flows of angel hair

Rows and flows of angel hair

The kind with a gorgeous illustration on one side of the page and a black and white outline of the same picture opposite for you to colour in.

And ice cream castles in the air

And ice cream castles in the air

I had a bash at the yacht, and the zoo, and the children on the beach.

And feather canyons everywhere

And feather canyons everywhere

But the last page I didn’t touch.

I've looked at clouds that way

I’ve looked at clouds that way

The two Persian kittens were too beautiful, too perfect.

But now they only block the sun

But now they only block the sun

I knew very clearly that I would mess up my attempt.

They rain and snow on everyone

They rain and snow on everyone

I’ll save it; I’ll do it when I’m older, when I can colour perfectly. I put the book away somewhere safe.

So many things I would have done

So many things I would have done

And never found it again.

But clouds got in my way

But clouds got in my way

January 2014. Colouring in.

 

(The cloud words are all Joni Mitchell’s from Both Sides, Now; mine when I sing them in the shower. http://www.jonimitchell.com/)